Archive for May 11th, 2009

A terrible times

Monday, May 11th, 2009

The SHR project is going nowhere, the teachers are playing with the group.Right now I’m drinking Amstel, yesterday I tried The Dutch beer Grolsh it wasn’t bad by the way.I’m completely convinced that my family has no love for me.I’ve recently suffered with a constipation again (a bit more than 3 days without a completepoop). I’m trying to eat as much food I red is good to be ate in cases of constipation,howver I still have difficulties when pooping. Happily with God’s help I was able to pooptoday twice even thought I felt like I couldn’t poop completely again. I’m starting to thinkthat this problem’s source are more deep. I experienced the same a couple of times previous year.The food here is also a reason. The food is simply terrible. I have absolutely no idea whatto do next in my life. I don’t know what will happen with this university it will be reallyridiculous if I didn’t succeed this semester I’ve prayed so much to God with a requeststo grant me graduate this times. Two days ago I woke up eary in 6:00 o’clock in the morningbecause my room was filled with a weed odour probably some mate was smoking weed, it is soterrible in this country. I have absolutely no idea what to do with myself next even if I graduate.Today I went to the bathroom at least 30 times (or more) attempting to bring some poo, my stomachwas swollen and I couldn’t bring the poop out … I’m constantly thinking about becoming a priestor a monk right after I graduate. There is no much that really hold me to this world. My health problems causing frequent urination are calling up again … it’s really hard to live in thiscondition I don’t understand why God doesn’t heal me from that but anyways I cannot do much about.I couldn’t pray much anymore, I also feel so weak and tired this days. It’s getting darker anddarker in this world. The weather is getting more and more insane, probably the day of the lordis coming near. Apart from that today I went to Ina’s home cause we had to work on the IBP plan.I’ve asked a friend of mine to design a logo for our company and he did a great job.Tomorrow we have to meet the teacher and ask him about what we have as a plan so far.Later on I went to Sali and helped to Mimi (his wife) to peel some potatoes, afterwards Sali borrowedme one of his bikes as he usually does and we went for a drive around in the city. We went throughtthe city center the Sonsbeek park and another park near Sonsbeek after which we came back to his place.His wife Mimi treated me with some fried potatoes which was pretty nice I haven’t eaten fried potatoesfor maybe 5 months. That’s mostly what is happening, anyways I should thank God for his abundant merciesto me the sinner. Glory be to The Father, The Son and The Holy Spirit now and forever and ever! Amen!END—–